Sorry if I've been missing a lot these days.  The H-man was sick last week, which necessitated another trip to the vet.  He ended up on antibiotics and a prescription diet.  That was last Wednesday.  By Friday, my weak back muscles started spasming and I couldn't walk for most of the weekend.  So a week has gone by.  My back is still killing me, but at least I took the day off.  Had to get the brakes replaced on my car, so what did I do?  Went shopping!  Why the hell not?  Between the vet and the car, I'm pretty broke 'til next week so who cares?  Not I.  I'm simply not in the mood to care.  Besides, a new Glee is on tonight!!

My unhappily married ex-boyfriend has been bothering me since he found me on Facebook in July.  I tried to be nice.  I tried to be friendly.  But I also realized what a total fuck-up he is and my instincts about him were correct 20 years ago.  Why do I doubt myself in life??  I think I've come far enough that I should learn to trust myself.

As shitty as I feel right now physically and as crappy as I look, I'm feeling so much better mentally.  Now if I could just get rid of this back pain...

Also, I might be going to Maine for Thanksgiving!  My nephew is 7 months old and I'm dying to see him!

Wishing a very happy birthday today to kelpierocks !  I hope you have a really great day and a wonderful year ahead!!

I've gotta stop thinking about a certain boy.  Some things just aren't meant to be.  Man, I'm a total loser when it comes to love. *le sigh*

I have the day off tomorrow!! Woo!  I can't wait.  Been a long time since I've had a 3-day weekend and one that I might actually have the possibility of enjoying. :-) 

Go Phillies!!  One game down, three to go!!  (I miss Glee though...)

Dominic Monaghan is back on TV tonight and I can't wait.  I love that boy so...

*sighs*  Ugh...another October Saturday and it's raining again!  Boo...I wanted to be out hiking with my boys, Cody (my dad's big yellow Lab) and Henry.  Believe it or not, Henry *loves* walking/hiking as long as he's with Cody.  Henry's little legs go a mile a minute to keep up with the big dog and his ears flap in the wind.  It's quite a sight, those two.  Hopefully the weather will clear tomorrow and we can out and walk.  Besides Henry needing the exercise, I certainly need the fresh air and sunshine myself.  I need to clear my head of these past two weeks of hell at work.

Love and hugs to all of you!  Stop by and tell me what you're up to this weekend!

P.S.  I'm so in love with Glee, I can't stand it!  What a great episode on Wednesday and now it won't be on for 3 weeks?  *cries*

P.S.S.  I missed House this week because the stupid Yankees/Angels went into extra innings and my DVR didn't record past 9 PM.  *sob*

P.S.S.S  Phillies, baby!!  woo!!

I let myself sink into a bad place emotionally the past couple of months and I'm sick of feeling that way.  Some of it was circumstantial stuff and other things I did to myself, like talk to an ex-boyfriend who doesn't deserve anything from me and just because his life is complete shit, I allowed him to make me feel bad about myself.

I also did other things like not exercising and eating crappy foods and generally not being nice to myself.  I vow to pull myself out of this one way or another, starting today.  I only wish the weather was nice because October is one of my favorite months and I love to go hiking.  It's been rainy, sleeting and miserable for three days. :-(

A very, very Happy Birthday to feelforfaith !!   I hope you have a wonderful day and a great year ahead!!

I love this time of year.  It's my favorite season and not only do I sense the seasons changing, I feel better than I have in a long time.  Got rid of some shit in my life that needed to go, like toxic people from the past and my own crappy attitude about myself.  I've come a long way, fought for my own happiness and mental health and I'm not giving that up.

I took the day off yesterday from work.  Finally got my hair cut and got some stuff done that I've been wanting to do.  It's been raining since Friday morning.  That means Henry is going crazy.   My parents and Cody have been in Maine since last Sunday and the poor H-man has been lost and forlorn.  He's used to seeing them and just can't figure out where they've all gone.  :-(   I think he misses his buddy, Cody, more than anything else.

Anyone out there watching Glee?  What a hoot...I've already downloaded the songs.  Also can't wait for House, Flash Forward and Grey's Anatomy!!  Yay for TV!!

I had high hopes for feeling well enough today to be able to go to my grandmother's birthday dinner, but I can't go.  This cold/virus thing has kicked my sorry ass to the curb bigtime.  The only good thing about the day is that it's so humid, it's raining.  I've decided to start watching Lost again.  I'd forgotten how awesomely good Season 1 was.  Ah, the memories.  The long-deceased characters..boo...At least it takes my mind off being sick.

How is your weekend going?

Thanks to all who sent hugs and good wishes.  Unfortunately after Tuesday, I ended up getting sicker and was forced to call in sick on Wednesday.  I dragged myself out of bed to go on Thursday and told them I wasn't working today, which turned out to be the best idea I had in quite awhile, especially since I still feel like crap and the only thing left of my voice is a small croak.  I'm starting to go insane being stuck in the house, but at least I have Henry for company. :-)

The only problem is that my family is having a dinner tomorrow night  for my grandmother, who turns 90 on Monday.  I don't think there's any amount of makeup-ing that can make me resemble a human being and I sound even worse, but I'm going anyway.

I wanted to wish a very, very Happy Birthday to halfdutch !!  I hope you have a wonderful birthday, hon!!

Spent all last night, not sleeping, battling a scratchy throat and a cold that is going around the office and I now contracted it.  Yay!  Got to work this morning, was there about a half hour when the power went out briefly.  Just long enough to totally screw with the computer system and the internet.  I can't work without either of those and I'm bogged down with work at the moment.  And sick.  And I can't call in sick.  After wrestling with the computer software people, the whole shebang was finally up and running at 3:30 this afternoon. 

I finally get home and find a dead squirrel in the front yard.  Fantastic.  So I have to get rid of it before Henry and/or the crows sitting on the roof get to it.  What fun....

And it's only Tuesday.  I swear if anyone bothers me for the rest of the evening...friends, family, ex-boyfriends...I'm kicking their ass.

After an agonizing night of worrying about my pup, I dropped Henry off at the vet this morning, bracing for the worst.  His teeth are fine except for a back molar that had broken in half and it had to be removed.  They even gave me the tooth as a souvenir.  Gee, thanks. 

My boy is quite woozy, glassy-eyed, but still as hungry as ever.  Figures.  He's got stitches in his mouth, painkillers and antibiotics and I've been fussing over him.  I'm just grateful he didn't lose more teeth!

( and in other news.. )

I really need to stop posting when I'm completely and utterly freaked out...like my last entry.  Couldn't really help it though.  I was freaked out.  Probably because I spend half my nights in some dark hell, tossing and turning, trying to sleep but can't.

I hate this weather---intense humidity followed by storms.  I don't mind the rain as much as the sticky, humid muck.  And I miss TV.  Is it September yet?  I need a diversion from myself.

Henry needs to go to the vet on Friday to have his teeth cleaned up.  My vet warned me at his last big appointment that his teeth had some problems so now he has to go.  I put it off as long as I could.  Not because of the money.  I could give a shit about that.  I'm just terrified of him being put under the anesthesia.  Cross your fingers that my baby will be okay. 

It's just one more thing to keep me up at night.

This week  sucked on so many levels.  I left work early after what turned out to be a way-over-40-hour-week because I just couldn't take anymore.  And it wasn't just work.  It's everything.  Life in general.  WTF?  Why can't life be easy for once?

I was going to take my sorry ass to B&N later but I'm in no mood to even manage that.  Actually I don't feel all that great.  I have kind of a stomach thing probably brought on from lack of sleep.

I'm going to attempt to have a decent weekend no matter what.  Even if that means I do nothing all weekend.

It was a busy weekend, so since it's been raining all day today, I got an excuse to relax!   Watched some movies and various episodes of SATC, which I love to watch, one right after the other.  It's like cotton candy on a dreary August Sunday.  Not that I mind.  I love days where I don't feel guilty for doing nothing. :-)

Had an awesome holiday weekend filled with shopping, great weather, yummy food, dog-walking, fireworks, and more shopping!  I can't complain.  Plus I happened to hit some wonderful sales and I couldn't pass up buying myself a few items. ;-)

Monday tomorrow but shh...we won't speak of it!

Hope you all had a wonderful weekend!!

Sorry this is so late today but I wanted to wish foxylovesme  the happiest of birthdays!!  Deb, I hope you had a terrific day so far and I hope this coming year brings you all the best that life has to offer.  You're a wonderful friend!

Well, I'm off to Maine tomorrow morning.  The H-man and I are hittin' the highway and driving north for (hopefully only) 8 hours!  Yikes...anyway, I'm not sure how much time I'll get at my brother's computer but I'll be back Monday with lots of pics of my nephew. :-)  I hope you all have a wonderful couple of days and I'll talk to you soon!!

(If anyone can find me a lighthouse icon, I'd be ever so grateful!)  :-D

I'd like to thank everyone who made me banners on their LJ's, sent me virtual gifts and/or sent messages for my birthday yesterday!!  You are such a wonderful flist and you made my day so much brighter. :-)

Thank you all for being a part of my life.  I hope your week is going well!!

Very happy birthday wishes to one of my new friends, falling_slowly !!  I hope you have a wonderful day today, hon!!  I'm looking forward to
squeeing with you over Grey's Anatomy this next season. :-)